Just Some Thoughts

Lately I've been wondering. Thinking. Wondering. Thinking some more.

Why the hell do we have to place so much pressure on ourselves to be busy? To always be doing something? Even when you say, okay I'm taking the day off and doing nothing. Do you ever really do, nothing? Like, nothing nothing? Have you ever let yourself BE with your thoughts? You know, the good, the bad, and even the ugly? Have you let  your brain just chill and kind of let you know what's going on? How it's feeling?

I know for me personally that is a very rare and seldom occasion. Especially now in the day and age of such tremendous technology. I know that I am guilty of having my phone in hand, a LOT. However, throughout the day, I do try to keep that at a minimum when I'm with my son. Of course, I do take a lot of pictures. But, is that bad? Hell to the no it's not. First, it's my prerogative to do what I want and when I want. I love to take pictures of my child. I don't ever want to miss a moment or even forget what that moment feels like. If when I get old I can't remember, I will have these pictures with me. And not only that, but my son will be able to have these memories for his family, and to pass on. So, in that instance, technology is a beautiful thing.

However, there are times when I'm bored and Johnny is napping. So I keep myself busy with blogging, housework, or crafts. But there are times when I'm like, oh I'm bored, let's surf the internet. Facebook. Instagram. Poshmark. Twitter. You name it. I find myself mindlessly scrolling. Is that okay? Of course it is! I have interests and hobbies in life and I like to read articles on the internet, I like to keep up with my family who is far, friends who I haven't seen in a while. But it's also good and necessary to be alone with your thoughts, so that you don't lose yourself.

Social media is such a blessing in my eyes, although I don't think I ever would have made it out of High School with it. But social media can also be dangerous. It's human nature to compare and contrast ourselves with others. Jealousy is also a natural feeling, but it's important to not let that take over your life. Once in a while, unplug. Unwind. Live in the now. Often times I see people whom I look up to in the fitness and business industry, and find myself truly inspired to be a better version of me. But there are also days where looking at this can get me down, too. That's when I know it's time to unplug.

You see, there is a lot that goes on in real life behind pictures. Just because you got that "perfect" moment captured, does not mean that it is indeed all sunshine and fucking rainbows, ya feel me?

It's important to remember that you are enough. Your life is enough. Your family is enough. If you're feeling inspired, that's wonderful! You should be! But, just because someone made a pie that looks like a Turkey from Pinterest certainly doesn't mean that you're doing a bad job or not good enough. It just means that maybe, some day, you will make a pie that looks like, well, a pie.